Tuesday, October 14, 2014


Im stuck.. Im working on a painting and Im stuck.  I have a problem with confidence, I always feel like Im about to wreck the whole thing and this is a large painting. Im doing the painting for a silent auction to benefit The Friends of the Great Smoky Mountains.  It a really high end affair and has some high end artist that participate.  I am honored to have been asked and nervous about not measuring up. I'm about halfway done and I haven't been able to work on it for 3 days now.  I'm so clever at finding so many other things that must be done instead of buckling down and finishing this painting. Like reworking my website www.serendipityartist.com which is what I did today instead of painting (it did need it!).

It's fear that has control.

Fear that I will screw it up.

Fear that it wont measure up.

Fear that I am not able to do an amazing job on this.

Where fear is in control God is not so I know I must let it go and give it to God, to let God have control.  I have to let go of the ME ME ME, stop worrying what people will think and just do it.... Easier said then done sometimes.

Whats amazing to me is that I never plan what I am going to blog about, I just start typing and the answer to my problem just shows up! Well sometimes anyway, but this is one of those times I think. Tomorrow I will endeavor to finish this painting but before I start I will give it to God and seriously pray over it!

In other news, still waiting on a closing date for the house my sister is purchasing but hoping to be moving within the next two weeks.  This will be seriously helpful as I will have studio space.  Right now I am rather cramped with studio being in my bedroom. Things have fallen together concerning the purchase of this house that only God could have orchestrated it so well!

This will be my studio space although I have been told I can't have the whole room, it will still be plenty of space compared to what I have now! God is able has been a recent theme I have been seeing lately and I believe it!

No comments: